New Way of Life

During the course of 1.5 years a number of things happened: stopped smoking, got pregnant-had a miscarriage, got pregnant again 2 months later and voilà! 80 pounds is tackled on like it was a piece of cake (or quite a number of cakes), and on top of already being overweight before any of that happened, I’m am morbidly obese.  I know from past experiences, losing 60 pounds before any of that, that losing the fat isn’t easy, but the end result is amazing!  It’s a minute by minute struggle to not pick up that slice of pizza, or indulge in the yummy deserts, and it would be so much easier to pass up on the hard workout and relax on the ever so comfy couch and cuddle with my hubby and son.  Yet, deep in the back of my mind, and in the depth of my soul, I know I can’t keep doing that.  I’m fat!  I didn’t get like this because of the baby weight or because of someone else’s decisions; I got like this because of all those bad decisions I made.  Thus, I need to make some changes.  I’m not going to call it a diet, because in actuality, all it really means is changing my eating habits, portioning my intakes, drinking no-calorie beverages, and exercising.  I need to do this for myself, but most importantly for my son.  I want to be able to run around with him next year when he begins walking, I want to be able to take him to the activities he wants to join and be involved, I don’t want him to see me as the mom on the sidelines.  Therefore, today is the start of a new day, and a start to a new way of life…a HEALTHIER, energetic, sexy, new me!